Maintaince is better then a gain!!!!

Well although I didn't lose weight this week, I am pretty happy that I maintained my weight.  So yippee!!!! Jump for joy, despite my over indulgence on my birthday and a couple times here and there I guess I could say I had a good weight watchers weigh in today!!!!!!     I still haven't been able to get back to boot camp, due to this cough but soon.  I do have to admit that I am getting pretty antsy I really want to go back to boot camp!!!!!!!!      As torturous as it is, I actually miss it.       I am also excited because I really like the group of women that are in the weight watcher's group on Wednesday evenings.   I don't know what it is about them but they all just seem so nice and pleasurable.  I haven't had a chance to really talk with them, but I did notice them after the meeting standing around and talking, I really wanted to join in but I  couldn't because I had to get going.  So, hopefully next time I will get a chance to socialize.    I found it interesting because today the weight watcher leader asked us what the last straw us.. what made us join weight watchers... and to my surprise I had actually forgotten.    I did remember though, and when I remembered I just felt that sense of motivation again!!!   I even spoke up and told the group that for me it was looking at pictures of myself and seeing how much weight I have gained, and also the fact that when I went back to work I had no clothes that would fit.  I told them that I did not enjoy having to go shopping for a bigger size.    I am so glad that she brought this topic up, because I did feel myself veering off a little.  So here is to another week of weight watchers, and renewed motivation.   I can do this, and so can you!!!!!!

Such is life.. thyroid blues, sore throat, and medication decision???

Hello everyone!!!  I hope everyone in blog world is doing good!!!!  Well I tried my best to not overeat this week since it was birthday... I could have done better, but I could have done worse ha ha!!!!      I ended up getting a sore throat/cold or whatever it is so my workout routine this week went down the drain :(      I did take my dogs for a walk though on Thursday and this morning so  I guess a little exercise is better then no exercise.     I am hoping that this cold go away soon, because I really want to get back on track this week!!!!  I have no excuses!!!    It is also nice that the wheather here in San Antonio seems to be cooling down a couple of degrees!!!!    I  don't know why lately I have been thinking about not having a thyroid so much.   I guess it's because my one year anniversary of having it removed is coming up next week.   It just strange how sometimes things repeat themselves.   Last year around this time I got sick, and it was right before my surgery so I was all stressed out about if my surgery was going to have to be postponed or not.  This year,  I guess all those memories resurfaced because..  I got a cold and it just made me thing of everything.    I guess it's part of being human, but I hate when I start feeling sorry for myself.    I also am trying to decide if I should switch the medication on I am on..  I told my doctor that sometimes the Synthroid makes my stomach upset.. So he told me I could try Levoxyl  because it doesn't have lactose..  Well,  I am hesitant because other then having some stomach troubles I have been feeling pretty good on the Synthroid.. I guess I  just don't want to try the Levoxyl and then go back to that place where I feel like I am struggling with feeling "normal"   ..  but I have been told it's the same medication just diffrent  fillers.. So I have maybe about  7 more pills of synthroid before I need to make a decision!!!!  Ugh.. I hate making decisions and not know what the outcome will be, especially when it has to do with how you feel..   

A little food happy this week

This wednesday is my Birthday, and for some reason I got it into my head that since this week is my birthday that I can eat whatever I want.    I know my thinking is off, so I am going to do my best to eat healthy for as many meals as possible with the exception of my birthday dinner meal on wednesday.    I also plan on getting myself to bootcamp on Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday of this week.   Unfortunatly, I won't be able to go to my weight watchers meeting because I plan on celebrating my birthday on Wednesday evening which is when I have been going to the meetings.     I think that is another reason why I got it into my head that I could eat whatever I want because I know I am not going to the meeting.     So, I need to just rethink my food happiness and remember that the more I eat, the more I gain, and then when I do go back to weight watchers I will be mad because I let myself get so off track.   I need to figure out a way to keep myself motivated this week.   Any suggestions????  Maybe I should stick a reminder to my mirror or to my phone or something that says..  Remember if you eat bad you will suffer the consequences?? Ha Ha  

Yipee I lost!!!!

Yesterday I went to my weight watchers meeting and I was so happy that I had lost 2.6 lbs!!!!!   I was actually very surprised because like I said I was just having one of those hungry type weeks.      So far weeks one with weight watchers equaled sucess!!!!     I do have to admit it did make me feel recharged, and gave me the feeling of  accomplishment.    I thought to myself.. I can do this!!!     I haven't had a chance to really exercise all week, so today I am hoping to go to bootcamp!!    I have a feeling it will be a tough workout since, I haven't been in a while, but it will be a great way for me to burn of some calories!!  

Hungry week

It would happen to me this week, this week that I started weight watchers that I have been super duper hungry.  I have been eating through my points like nothing.     I think it's hormones this week that have me eating through everything.   Those stupid hormones also have me craving and eating all kinds of bad food .  Ha Ha, I wonder what they will tell me at the weight watchers meeting if I show a gain??   I was thinking about not going, but I think that would just get me off on the wrong foot.  So, I am going to go, and  be honest with them and say that it was just a hungry week for me.  
  I was really hoping to go work out today because I am supposed to weigh in on Wednesday, but I didn't have a chance to rest this weekend, and it caught up to me because today I am low on energy.    I had convinced myself to go to Zumba, but then I realized that my workout clothes needed to be washed.   So, I think I am going to try and take a walk a little bit later.   Things at work are still crazy, but I am going to just do my best and just go with the flow!!!  I am so ready for a vacation ha ha.     I also am hoping that maye this weekend I will get a chance to get some running in.  I haven't had time to run, because I have been going out of town to watch college football.   This weekend, the Longhorns are playing out of state so hopefully that will give me a chance to get some miles in.  

Weight Watchers here I come again ha ha

Well it has been a while since I have attempted to do weight watchers.  I would say it's been over a year for me.  So I decided to give it a try, I think I needed to get excited about trying something new, so I am hoping this will excite me!!!!    I went today to my first meetings (well technically not my first because I have tried WW before) but it was my first meetings using the new system.    I have heard that weight loss is slow with this new program, but I hoping that this will help me with accountablity issues.    I am still planning on using myfitness pal as a back up if I need to figure out calories and of course to track my weight.    I am also hoping that I can have patience and give weight watchers a chance, I tend to get bored easily with counting calories, points, or whatever so I am hoping that this time I can stick with this for a little while.     It is going to be hard for me to juggle my schedule between work, working out, and going out of town for football games so  I am just going to do my best and give this a try!    

When it rains it pours..

These past two weeks has been so draining, this weekend I am trying to enjoy my labor day weekend.  I went and watched my favorite college football team play and win Go Horns Go,  I also went with my family to watch UTSA play in their very first football game and they won also.   I enjoyed my time watching football and my time out of town, but it's back to reality.         So what exactly is my reality???   Well for starters, I got my results back from my bloodwork that was taken and while I was happy to see that my TSH level was within the normal range,  I was very upset that my PTH level had gone up instead of down like I have been hoping.  So of course, this put me right back in that stressful place of, what does that mean??? Does that mean my parathyroid gland is acting wacky and needs to be removed or does that mean I am super duper stressed out about work and it cause my bloodwork to comeout wacky.    I don't think that medically stress will cause that paticular level to be elevated, but you know how they say stress does strange things to the body.  So I am hoping that is what it is. In the meantime I get to sit and wait and be patient until I go in for testing again in December.   Now, techinically I could jump the gun and go to my other endocrinologist in September, but I don't know if I want to put myself through that again especially around my birthday.   I think it would just remind me of last year being told I needed to have my thyroid removed around the same time of year.   I just want this cycle of health issues to end.. Please Please Please!!!!!    Then, as if that isn't enough for me to stress about, work is just overwhelmingly stressfull.  I wish I could go into details but I can't because that would be violating confidentiality but lets just say if there was a way for me to avoid going to work and finding a new job by Tuesday I would consider it. 
My calorie counting has been way off track, and I am also considering joining weight watchers so I can have someone to be accountable to but I haven't decided if that is what I want to do or not.  I will decide soon though.    
Why is it that when things go wrong, it seems like everything has to go wrong????   I feel like I am drowning,  and all I can do is keep praying and hoping that someone will throw me a life vest.    Don't get me wrong people have tried giving me life vests, but for some reason they just aren't the right life vest I guess you could say.      Maybe what I need is a rescue boat, instead of just a vest??!!!