These past two weeks has been so draining, this weekend I am trying to enjoy my labor day weekend. I went and watched my favorite college football team play and win Go Horns Go, I also went with my family to watch UTSA play in their very first football game and they won also. I enjoyed my time watching football and my time out of town, but it's back to reality. So what exactly is my reality??? Well for starters, I got my results back from my bloodwork that was taken and while I was happy to see that my TSH level was within the normal range, I was very upset that my PTH level had gone up instead of down like I have been hoping. So of course, this put me right back in that stressful place of, what does that mean??? Does that mean my parathyroid gland is acting wacky and needs to be removed or does that mean I am super duper stressed out about work and it cause my bloodwork to comeout wacky. I don't think that medically stress will cause that paticular level to be elevated, but you know how they say stress does strange things to the body. So I am hoping that is what it is. In the meantime I get to sit and wait and be patient until I go in for testing again in December. Now, techinically I could jump the gun and go to my other endocrinologist in September, but I don't know if I want to put myself through that again especially around my birthday. I think it would just remind me of last year being told I needed to have my thyroid removed around the same time of year. I just want this cycle of health issues to end.. Please Please Please!!!!! Then, as if that isn't enough for me to stress about, work is just overwhelmingly stressfull. I wish I could go into details but I can't because that would be violating confidentiality but lets just say if there was a way for me to avoid going to work and finding a new job by Tuesday I would consider it.
My calorie counting has been way off track, and I am also considering joining weight watchers so I can have someone to be accountable to but I haven't decided if that is what I want to do or not. I will decide soon though.
Why is it that when things go wrong, it seems like everything has to go wrong???? I feel like I am drowning, and all I can do is keep praying and hoping that someone will throw me a life vest. Don't get me wrong people have tried giving me life vests, but for some reason they just aren't the right life vest I guess you could say. Maybe what I need is a rescue boat, instead of just a vest??!!!